Re: At some point…
Posted by Ok - but on 5/4/2021, 3:22 pm, in reply to "At some point…"
My friend, |
I hear you. You have valid points. I understand your frustration.
That being said, I'd like to offer some perspective for you since it looks as though your anger and resentment my have gotten the best of you.
Try to focus on the good parts of every day.
Try to give every kid your best.
Try to show your passion and love for music to your students.
Try to love on every kid.
Try to really remember your "why".
If the events of the last 14 months have shown us anything, they have shown us that we all need music now more than we ever have before. The energy that you bring to work every day has either a positive impact, or a negative one. The voice that you bring has a positive tone, or a negative one. Your message to your students either brings hope, or noise. Please understand that your students are better because of you and your "why".
I am going to go out on a limb and say that I bet when you got into this profession, your "why" was not so that you could win awards, be the boss, or call the shots. At least I hope not. You "why" was the kids. Your "why" was studying and training for years to perfect your craft so that you could impact and influence kids - the same way somebody influenced and impacted YOU.
Too many times we forget the why. We get consumed with with what our coworkers are or are-not doing. All we concern ourselves with is how we could do it better. We become jealous and angry of the other person calling the shots differently than the way WE would do it.
Look, most of us have been in your shoes. We've studied under, gotten stuck with, or worked behind people who we all thought were sub-par. And you know what - - we all became better from it.
Here's what I mean. You either win......or you learn. What is happening right now is, you are learning so many things about yourself and your teaching, leadership, communication, etc., etc., that you will grow from whenever you have your own program. We can always learn something.....even those from whom we despise.
Now, as far as the hours go......this job takes time. What I would recommend is that you do the best job you can do every day, fulfill your duties as assigned to you with the most positive attitude you can muster, and make sure you are working smarter and not harder. Find ways to maximize your efficiency.
I feel for you. We've all gotten pushed to heights of frustration. It seems as though you are at the peak. The last piece of advice is that I hope you try to find someone to talk to outside of the workplace. There are SO many opportunities to speak with professionals about your struggles. And trust me, it's doesn't have the stigma attached to it as in years past. Everybody needs somebody to talk to.
I hope you remember your why and you're able to focus on it moving forward, and I'm sorry you are in this situation. Your frustration is understandable, but I know things will get better for you.
One last thing:
"It is what it is" - - is NOT accurate, and is a terrible life motto. It implies that you have no control over events that happen in your life. The truth is.....you DO have control.
..."It is what you make it"...
Good luck to you my friend.