Posted by 1A guy on 11/4/2019, 1:04 pm, in reply to "Re: Regret"
If you think that teaching in a small school would be any less stressful, you're in for a disappointment if you get back in. Small schools have their own unique set of culture/problems/issues that you have to deal with. I think that teaching in general in all size schools has just gotten harder as our society has gotten worse in many ways. |
I regret having gone into band but, not for the reason that you state. I majored in music because I loved playing. I think where I went wrong was going into teaching instead of getting into performing. I think after getting some type of music degree my next step should have been getting into a service band. I had a few friends from college who had done that but, by the time I had heard what they were doing I was already in my 30's. At that time the cutoff age was 34 and I think I was 35. If I had known about this a few years earlier I would have signed on in a heartbeat. Throughout my years in high school the best part for me was the individual competitiveness Region, Area and state and the playing.
IF you think things are like teaching to a test then, you possibly are in the wrong field. Do not consider accounting. Their test would be your taxes- did you take out enough? If you did not , you will be pinged. Don't consider carpentry. You build a house, it gets sold. Guess what? If you want another job-- you are going to have to build another house. I am not sure what field you could choose. Everything starts , stops and then, starts again.
I think that not knowing about service bands was a real bummer. My dad surely should have known since he was in the army. All he preached was NOT to go into the service because I would have to go to war. Not one time did he mention that there were service bands. I took clarinet lessons starting in 7th grade and surely, one of those teachers would have known.
So, in that respect I do regret but, I cannot change that now. I can say that I made it out alive and that I did not make good choices of places to teach. As a divorced mom I did the best I could. My daughter is very well adjusted, hung out with good kids throughout her school yrs., went to A&M, graduated w/honors and now has 2 years left of her residency and then, she will be practicing medicine. I think that raising my daughter was my greatest achievement.
This past year I retired 7 months into the year. It was not a planned retirement but, it was the only way to get away from rude, immature, selfish co-workers who thought they could do no wrong. It was my pleasure to leave. I do not regret leaving. I felt bad for the kids but, I really needed to keep my health in check.
Knowing that I cannot return to teaching the only way I would consider returning to the field would be to go to a place that has no director and needs one (small town Texas) and work an agreement out with the powers that be to make it a long term sub position so it would not affect my retirement. I know that will never happen.
Ever regret becoming a band director? I just don't get the fulfillment or the purpose of spending hours on end in the band hall teaching to a test (contest). Yes I teach fundamentals but we live and die by contest (let's be honest, when was the last time you praised a consistent division 2 band director).
If it's not marching band, it's region music or solo and ensemble. And then concert season and then all over again.
Most of us don't have non work friends. We have work friends or maybe church friends but not friends who don't know the difference between melodic and natural minors.
It's obsessive but for what reason, to relive our glory days as a band kid. Let's be honest, we make fun of the coaches for reliving their glory days but we do the same thing.
Yes, I'm ready to leave this profession. Competition has burned me out. And the constant judging of peers is really exhausting.....teach your kids and get over yourself.