The expectations far exceeded the pay to make the stress worth it. The cold, hard math no longer worked. I couldn't "love the children" enough to make up the difference for all the things the district wouldn't do.
My fight/flight/freeze reflex was activated everytime most of the admin ever communicate with me - email, in person, phone...
All these communications feel into the following categories:
1. I did something wrong
2. I didn't do something exactly wrong, but they wanted it done differently
3. They were changing schedules/expectations/protocols
4. They had another task for me to add to my tasks.
I never really heard that I had done something right. Going above and beyond didn't even meet expecations. I was actually told that my admin could do certain things better than me because he was male. (We were not talking about writing names in the snow...).
I was just done with it. I looked up one day and realized I was in an abusive relationship with my job and I couldn't unsee that. I was done with he gaslighting and the abuse. I now work from home. Happily.
I had over 20 years experience and a masers degree and was only bringing in 62,500 with stipends. So... yeah. Done.
My new job makes 58,240 with no experience. Things I don't spend money anymore: gas, wardrobe, classroom supplies. I make less, but I have more. I am treated as an appreciated professional. I haven't felt that way in a school in a very long time.
We had this amazing opportunity in the pandemic to pull back and make good changes for kids and instead we just got more politics. Heavy Sigh.
I predict that we cross critical mass on the staff shortage in no more than 3 years.
And the reason for bringing in military is is two fold - #1 optics - that whole Troops to Teachers things helps employ vets and looks good. #2 - It costs the district less in benefits because they generally have their own through the VA.