Iím at a loss. I just dont feel happy anymore. The hours are too long and the pay and appreciation for what we do (from an educator standpoint) is just not there. I used to love this. I feel like there are so many things out of my control that dictate how my day is going to be and I just have to suck it up and do the best I can knowing itíll never be justice for our students. I see how public education has changed in the past 15 years and find myself constantly asking, ďcan I really do this another 15 yearsĒ? Itís a depressing feeling.
Iíve thought of outside jobs but am to scared to make any drastic changes with no certainty of income and reliability. I feel stuck.
I hate myself for feeling this way, but I just needed to get it off my chest.
Thank you for reading.