There is already talk of a teacher shortage where I live and those close to retirement are going to bail.
I think you need to focus on yourself and what is right for you. You can't be an effective educator if you don't feel right as a person.
If you have the ability, seek out a counselor/therapist. I had to do this and it helped out. Make sure you find someone you feel comfortable with. It may take two or three different people to find the right person, but you will thank yourself in the long run.
I was self medication with a recreational drug that is legal in my state and I have to back off. I wasn't the person I wanted to be.
Lastly, set boundaries with people if you need to. Have that open conversation if needed if you have a partner.
There is light at the end of this tunnel.