I find it very difficult to find motivation knowing that I can't build the program. It doesn't matter how many kids I recruit or if I help kids grow as musicians. Students don't get placed in band or in the wrong classes.
I had to let go of about 100 kids this year because the counselors and admin refused to schedule them in band. They created a master schedule to help with testing. All elective classes are small this year.
I am really struggling with my personal motivation.