But then my perspective changed based on a bible study program I was in at the time as well as finding a GREAT mentor teacher. And again, without going too deep into the story or proselytizing my perspective changed. The change was also heralded by the birth of my son, who is now three.
In short I went away from the idea that I am here to get 1st divisions or championships, I'm not here to get medals, I'm not here to get kids in to the region or state band, etc.
I am here to teach these students to give their all, to be as detailed as possible, to feel the satisfaction of playing and marching at their highest personal level possible, and to take pride in what they do on a daily basis. If my kids go out on the field and march and play the best they ever have and get a two, so what? Yes, there are districts that view a 2 as a fireable offense but those districts are toxic (even though I feel that if I were have a year or two of 2s I'd likely be gone).
Find your purpose. It's not to teach to the test. It's not to teach to a judge. It's about causing your kids to grow up and give full effort, consistently.
And don't put your self worth in what others think of you or your program. They're not there every day. I know that's easier said than done but at the end of the day I ask myself this question: "Did I do everything that I can to help improve these kids and turn them into good people?" If the answer to that question is ever "NO" then I need to quit my profession.
(A side note: I'm a 4A HS band director with a band of ~120 kids. I'm young, not even in my 10th year of teaching, but I've been in one place all of my career. We've had success but we've also had failures. I've learned more from the 2s I've gotten than I did from any 1 I've ever received. Just a thought...)