My heart has been so heavy of late
Posted by Juanita on 9/28/2021, 3:43 pm
Missing my beloved little Sunni. Also, knowing that I could lose Cinni or Michael any time due to their age. I give them so much love and attention each day as I want them to feel my love always. Since my little girl died during the night, i try to get each of the boys to make some type of noise before I uncover them. It was such a shock to find my baby girl dead that morning. I wish I could have been holding her and giving her kisses as she left. It has left me afraid to uncover the boys each morning before they make a sound. Cinni was so sweet this morning after I put his drop of medicine in his eye. I held him in my cupped hands and told him mommy hated to have to do that every day, but mommy loves him too much not to do it. I asked him if he loved me and when he looked at me, I clearly saw the love in his eyes. I think somehow he knows I do it because I love him. Love is the one thing that doesn't need a translator, it is either there or it isn't and if you are loved, you just know.
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