Posted by Elizabeth on 12/5/2002, 6:35 am
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The first fight was infinitely better than any losing fantasy I'd ever had. I held on as long as I could before submitting, I was enjoying the sensation of Emma on top of me, in total control of me, so much. At the same time, in the back of my mind, I worried about what Peter would think of me losing to her and whether he would be disappointed in me. I really enjoyed the ritual sexual submission to her after I lost. I regretted however, agreeing to be tied up afterwards. I have to admit it intensified the losing experience but it's not really my thing. Peter, bastard that he is, did a much better job of making love to Emma than he had to and I must admit to feeling a twinge of anxiety at this point: did he think he'd found a better woman than me, did he want her more because she'd beaten me? As I sat tied up on the chair I realised that I must beat her next time and the time after that, if only to reclaim Peter's attention! Also though, Emma was quite right about the fact that I was what she called a switch, who could enjoy both winning and losing. I'd had the losing experience and loved it but now I just wanted to beat her. When Emma let me off what I'd agreed to and untied me was the moment I really started to fall in love with her. When Emma and Peter both comforted me and made love to me after that it felt wonderful. I was so glad to wake up and find only Peter in the bed with me. He didn't care that I'd suffered a total and humiliating defeat to Emma, he still loved me! Aside from the desire to be overpowered and dominated by another woman, preferably in front of Peter, I'd also always wanted to be defeated sometime so I could experience his love and support in that situation. He came up trumps, as he always does. I also appreciated Emma's discretion in leaving us alone. It never occurred to me that she was giving me the chance to run away if I wanted to! It also never occurred to me that we wouldn't be having a re-match, or more than one, at the first opportunity! I would indeed have been mortified if she hadn't given me the chance to fight her again after she had defeated me. I resolved to beat Emma next time and go on beating her, for Peter's sake. I decided I would take charge of her sexually and then dominate her with my fight plan right from the start of our second encounter! And I did! I would have loved a long drawn out fight, and long drawn out submission with her crying SURRENDER, as in my fantasies, but the most important thing to me in the second fight was just to win! I too was pleasantly dreaming of what I would do in our third fight when Emma's challenge came and I took it up instantly, feeling that I could catfight with Emma forever! I had no desire to lose this next fight however and thought only of winning. At the same time I knew I could have coped with, indeed relished, defeat, at the hands of a woman like Emma! I was simply ready to submit myself totally to the contest with her! When Peter sought to veto it I was not totally surprised. I knew of course that he would like nothing better than to see the two of us in another sexy catfight but realised straight away that his tactical mind was merely planning more moves ahead than Emma and I were! He was thinking of a long term relationship with Emma like we had with Jane and Cath. I knew he was right: much as I desperately wanted to catfight with Emma again, and again, that would probably rule out the long term. I'm glad we made the choice we did! It was fantastic to watch Emma fighting Jenny but I would have much preferred to have been doing it myself! Catfighting with another woman, particularly in front of an audience who will witness your victory or defeat, with everything on the line and no certainty as to the outcome, is the most incredibly intense and uplifting experience. I felt such an incredible high before during and after all my fights. Through Jane, I challenged Jenny to come round for the catfight she owed me, when as I said, she had recovered from the beating Emma gave her. I told Jane I could never respect Jenny until she did but that if she would come and fight, regardless of the outcome, as far as I was concerned the slate would be wiped clean. Like most bullies, she is a coward and her appetite for fighting seemed to have evaporated. Thus we lost Jane but ultimately that was the choice Jane made. With some trepidation, after the Jenny experience, we did ultimately introduce Emma to Cath. To our relief they got on famously, helped by a shared love of horseriding. Like me, Emma relishes the challenge of wrestling with this strong woman, but is no more successful! I've changed a lot from the painfully shy girl I was 20 or so years ago. I've realised that the desire to fight was probably buried deep in me all along, as I suspect it is in everyone. By realising that desire, by conquering and yes, being conquered, I feel I've broken down all the barriers holding me in. I feel completely free and able to do anything. Would I catfight again if the chance came my way? Absolutely! Elizabeth elizabethjesaunders@hotmail.com