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Posted by Colgan Bryan
on 2/10/2008, 11:16 pm, in reply to ""As the stomach turns" Colgan Bryan"
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I hope Alice's accusations of "crimes" that she wishes to inflict on my family and me are as entertaining as all of her other stories she uses
escape reality
To hear her stories, she is the real India Jones who has survived being "chased by a nest of alligators", a plane crash AND a train crash. She also claims to heal the sick and work her fingers to the bone caring for the elderly and the downtrodden.
Somehow, she ALWAYS has some neighbors who are doing horrible things to her while she bravely confronts them and shows them who's in control. Funny how her cats have been poisoned by both her neighbor across from her house in Mt Dora today and the lady who lived across the street in Cocoa Isles back in the '60s. What a coincidence.
She is STILL using a fake name, a fake British accent, fake stories, a fake personality and false accusations and yet she thinks that she has everyone fooled because no one cares enough about her to confront her.
Using fake illnesses for her and her family for attention or as an excuse for something that she is failing at will always make me cringe though. So many people would give anything not to have these illnesses and problems but Alice sees her life as better by pretending to be a victim. I hope I never understand that.
Alice's reliance on lying for all of these years just shows her disrespect for everyone she thinks she can fool and a severe dissatisfaction with her own life. Having me to blame will not change that.
Alice would find that people are a lot more tolerant of the fact that she flunked out of her first year in college if she didn't compensate with vocabulary that is over her head and try to pass herself off as more educated. Saying "bless their hearts" when she talks down to people that she sees a inferior doesn't make her more tolerant either.
Her attempts to be condescending and arrogant are symptomatic of her delusional, jealous desire to elevate herself to evade her inadequacies and her dissatisfaction with her own life. Fiction is her only way to cope.
I am so thankful I never had a time or reason in my life where I was desperate for approval the way that Alice is. I find that extremely ironic since I work in the entertainment industry where screwed up, selfish, ego maniacal fakes are not hard to find. The surprising fact is that Alice is far worse than any of them.
Growing up with Alice probably made it easier for me to tolerate the "difficult personalities" of drug addicts, and those suffering from milder cases of borderline personality disorder, bipolar or paranoid schizophrenia than Alice.
Growing up in Cocoa Beach made it too difficult for me to over-rate Alice's issues since there were so many better things to focus on. Maybe that is why she hates Cocoa Beach almost as much as she hates me. YES!!!!!
I have never thought of my happiness in life and peace of mind as a "weapon" but it is a victory over someone like Alice who obviously feels that she cannot be happy unless she inflicts pain on people around her. Her old weapon of trying to embarrass me and others like me, no longer stops me from speaking my mind. I can now add that to my list of victories that she will never be able to accept. YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Alice wants to believe that I am blaming her for something but that doesn't make any sense to me. In her context she thinks that I am blaming her for things in my life that I regret but the only regrets that I have is showing her more patience than she will every deserve and I regret my inability to protect my parents from Alice's selfish agenda.
I can see from her perspective why she would prefer her fantasy world of delusions, false accusations, fiction and revision of history over facing the truth of her deplorable, selfish, manipulative, selfish, and controlling behavior over my parents when they were facing death. That's a truth that she should be afraid to face.
As for her delusion that my wife and I are "fearing justice", justice is exactly what we're praying for. Alice's attempts to harm my family to get at me makes her as sick as those Islamo terorists who target women and children out of cowardice.
She has abused her husband's perception of credibility to add credence to her fiction but instead of elevating herself, she has only pulled him down. While I know that her husband has helped her as an accomplice, he has done so under the misguided delusion that he's being loyal to his wife. I know that there is also a lot of fear mixed in since she has already divorced him once before but I can only feel bad for him because he has allowed her to place him in so many confrontations that were manipulated and even faked by his wife.
My parents and I were stuck with Alice, so we didn't really have any escape but Alice's husband chose to be in his situation and it is too bad that Alice cannot respect him for that. It's too bad that she still feels that she has to lie to him to get him to prove that he loves her.
As for my parents, there are not a lot of good things that can come from watching them die a slow death while their daughter acts like a vulture hanging over them.
I will always be thankful that I had time to tell them what I needed to say to them and what they said to me. I have lost friends suddenly and felt the regret of having never taken the time to say what I can now only say about them to other people so I am thankful that I had the opportunity and the presence of mind to see those opportunities for what they were.
Alice thinks she can put words in my parents' mouths after their deaths, but she is only adding more desecration to their memory hoping it will hurt me. I am not sure where her twisted version of Christianity justifies her behavior but we can all be thankful that real Christian churches are nothing like hers.
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