Hi Rhayden. Glad to see you back again and to hear you're gaining on the good days. Yes, it's amazing how you can be going along just fine and something will hit you just so and set you back crying again. Be kind to yourself and patient, and to your family as well- though most of us are better to others than we are to ourselves. I found with sorting that I had sudden bursts when I felt like I could do it and manage to get through some, and then rest for a while when I was grieving my dad & stepmom. As mentioned above, we all have cases of the "what ifs", but there is nothing we can do to change anything. We just need to make our peace with what is. Take care dear, we're thinking of you.