I have had two months off of Herceptin on account of my heart function dropping a bit. It has fully recovered and I am back on Herceptin.
For the past month I have been terrified of recurrence. I cannot tell the difference between aches and pains (I still feel like my body is recovering from chemo) and something worse. I am frozen with fear and have lost my positive outlook. I don't know what is wrong with me. I have seen and heard of so many amazing women lose their battle, I think what makes me so special that I will live?
I am sorry to be such a downer. I am thinking of getting some counseling from the cancer clinic. I am so disappointed in my attitude.
Anyone else go/is going through this?