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Posted by Lori on 2/28/2013, 9:44 am, in reply to "Re: sadness"
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I can relate to what you are feeling SO well. When I first discovered at the age of 26 that I had BC, I thought no way, this can't be happening, I am practically a newlywed, and want childen. That was 35 yrs ago, and I remember it like it was yesterday. I was in the hospital and they did a lumpectomy, the doctor came in and said Lori, it's cancer, and at that moment, I felt my body leaving me, rising out of the bed..blood rushing to my head. I was numb. My life was just starting, how could this be happending. Was I mad? yes, damn mad. I can relate to what you are saying about people complaining about dental work, or having a cold, or those constant complainers. I wanted to sometimes yell out and say, shut the hell up..how would you like to have your breasts removed because you have cancer? What you are feeling is so normal. I cried at the drop of a hat. I still do..lol..I couldn't have children, because it would have stirred things up, and I lost my marriage, but through it all, I still had me, my family, my friends and my life..and I'm now retired, and enjoying every minute of it, traveling. I have a new home, and love working outside planting flowers.. And I think everyday, that God saved me and left me on this earth for a reason. I have changed so much thoughout this whole ordeal. I'm much more caring to people, kinder, giving, and I love to help those in need and I am so much more sympathetic to those going through tough times, whether it's a sickness or divorce. I am just grateful that I have this second chance..I cherish it everyday of my life and I don't take life for granted EVER..It will get better for you. Enjoy your family and live life to the fullest. God bless you and everyone who goes through this. We're never alone, even when we think we are.