Posted by Chris on September 15, 2010, 20:32:22, in reply to "Update"
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Funny, I'm the EXACT same way! My natural reaction when someone asks me if I smoke is "nope", even though I have been for seven years. I guess it's because it's hard to label myself as a smoker. I have this clean-cut "all-American" image about myself that I feel like I'll tarnish if I come clean. Also, the fact that I feel like smoking makes me appear less attractive and maybe a bit stupid as it were makes it more difficult. The only time I have smoked in front of a friend was when I was really drunk at a club. Even though he is also a smoker and I was wasted, I still felt self-conscious! My fetish with smoking is two-fold. I love seeing attractive girls do it, which in turn will never let me quit. As soon as I see a girl smoking, I can't help myself. I've gotta have one! I guess it's something about doing the same as attractive girls. My family knows I smoke, but I don't do it around them, hoping they will just kind of "forget". Sounds like this girl is a closet smoker like me! Except that I don't even smoke in my own car. I'm very disciplined about that. One reason is that I bought it new (first new car ever for me and it's finally paid off) and I want to keep that new car smell forever, and also because I don't want someone getting in my car and thinking "ugh, smoker". Heck, I won't even smoke in front of strangers! I work 15 minutes away from home, and on my hour-long lunch break I drive home to smoke. Crazy, right?
I with I knew this girl you work with. I wonder if she has a Facebook?? 
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:
: Natalie's smoking
: situation continues to
: perplex me. This
: morning, four of the
: ladies (Natalie being
: one of them) were
: talking about their
: weekends, etc. Somehow
: in the course of the
: conversation, one of the
: girls mentioned that her
: mom who had smoked for
: almost 40 years was in
: the process of trying to
: quit. The talk then
: turned to smoking with
: all three (except
: Natalie) chiming in
: about their opinions of
: smoking, if they had
: ever smoked, etc.
: Throughout this part of
: the discussion Natalie
: (who had been part of
: the earlier discussion)
: just sat there in
: silence. Finally one of
: the ladies, Julie, came
: right out and asked
: Natalie if she had ever
: smoked. Natalie didn't
: even hesitate- she
: simply said, "Nope.
: Never tried it. My mom
: smoked when I was
: growing up and I always
: hated it." A flat
: out denial as well as a
: lie! I can't figure it
: out. One of the ladies
: in the discussion is a
: smoker and another
: admitted to smoking when
: younger. In addition,
: several other men and
: women in our office
: smoke. It is not a big
: deal here and I've never
: heard anyone criticize
: another employee for
: being a smoker. Why on
: earth is it such a big
: deal for Natalie to just
: admit that she smokes?
:
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