Posted by kalyn on 5/31/2004, 10:28 am i've been burning bridges to lose mistakes miss my sister but i love the sun
63.185.49.220
ah- a sudden time warp
i spent and grew endless days, nights
inside
a poetry board a seclusive bizarro world
to hide
and cry with these girls i've never met, and never will
no last names, blurry pictured faces old with drugs
and years
of dropping out of college
years moving-moving-
even the ones that were real
really faded away
eleven hours south
not alone but so alone
i find myself
*even more lost in reality
than i thought i was in
alter-reality
years and years preceding now
*domesticated happy so alone
*something less than i was then
and obliviously
until now
drowning
peeling away layer by layer this girl
i thought i was
wouldn't answer the phone- running and hiding a vicious irritating cycle even to myself
city to city to population 37
cutting love like trees around me until
burned and broken
too ####ing sad too care
or notice
my need for them
the real girls the real eyes i once looked into
for comfort for acceptance
the sun
wish the ocean would draw my feet in
my body down and take me back
take me back.
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