Posted by sri ava giri on 4/12/2006, 7:27 pm in my dreaming state i am defined as this addiction to.... in my dreamless state i am withdrawn dirty laundry is difficult to clean well yup just worst.. so correctly.... i.......dont ....want to belong.... but.....t always and forever
69.111.36.85
in my wakeful state i am speechless
your thwarting mind
especially when the queen of the drones is waring a bee hive
hair
do
no
not
really
but when you have to prose
smile
grin
and think to be conscious it sounded like the right thing
to say
at the wright moment.....
in this detachment
towards internal cycling
this concept of come over and
smell my roses is not a craving or
because-- i needed more kudo points
with god-it is because at some point in time
you just have to believe it has to be love
love -some kind of idea that was not
scary but was a sense of organs
wanting to think that in this
big head it was not me
but other than me
it was like an
iron fist
choke
ing
u
when i looked into the mirror- i saw how horrid i was
trully
t
h
a
t
is really scary
worst than mice runing aournd on your bedding
worst than gorrillas wanting to touch your head
your flesh
worst than
having to think before speaking
worst
i do believe that love will preveil
it has too
.......some where in america
someone else has these exact same thoughts
theses exact same feelings
and i just have to believe
that they will
show me the way
...bye answering...
have to show up
have to give
have to talk
have to even smile
i want....too
feel
that I WANT TO DO THESE THINGS
and i dont.....
and i have not for some time
........so.....
it has to be bigger than me
.for a greater purpose than just all about me or
please give me a gift for my birthday..
it has to be for some thing beyond what i see
what i know
what i understand
two choices she told me
very very clearly
one.....pass over.....
two easter....
....and timing is very very important.....
.................
i am going to go soak my feet in holy water
give my husband all the love he never had
and just believe
I KNOW WHAT TO DO
your
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