Posted by karen on 3/10/2005, 1:22 am, in reply to "Badly Need Assistance"
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Hi, I truly feel for your situation. I am unable to work, going on 3 years now, and it is so terrible to lost the ability to get and put your best foot forward. To find oneself unable to create a lot of change in our realities is a hard thing to have happen. I did want to share with you that regardless of finances you always have YOU to give to your daughter. I very much realize that not having a gift to give a small child is a heart breaker, however, I just lost my father on 12. 24.04 this year, he died pretty young at 65, he had a stroke 11 yrs prior. The stroke left him trapped in this body with his mind intact. It broke his heart and he suffered mentally over his deficits. My father died without a dime and yet I feel as if I was given the greatest best present of all, and that was of himself. My dad gave me his time. Possessions, money, heck a toy he would have given me would surely be long gone now that i am well into my 30's . However the gifts of himself live on in me and my brothers. All of the things he taught me, the influence he has on my life are the most precious gifts. I am sure that you would give your daughter the world if you could but faced with physical challenges that have led to financial challenges, us "disabled" souls have really no choice but to try to look at what we have not what we loss. It is a nicer way to think but really, truth be known, if we look at the huge loss that back pain caused, if we honestly assess the damages, we will suffer so much more than we already do. With that being said, I would like for a very special consideration in regards to loss of ability to work, financial consequences, back pain and drug/alcohol addictions. So many people suffer today because they are labeled drug and alcohol dependent. All it takes is a doctor to decide that you don't look right or act right, or that your subjective complaint of pain is greater than it should be, a wham your a drug addict. I was given so many drugs, and it wasn't even drugs of abuse that got me, it was good old Neurontin, that caused many to commit suicide under its influence. Given for neuropathy aka sciatica, it is an anti-seizure drug and as such affects peoples brains. That is why it is classified as a anti-seizure drug. I was given so much drugs in combinations that caused me to have what I call a chemical lobotomy. When a drug screen was negative for any illicit drugs, I was still thrown to the side. Left to suffer such pain that I almost took my own life. I am sure that having worked in law enforcement, you have seen the devestation of drug/alcohol abuse and it just isn't right to classify those that suffer so as "bad" . I am sure that you expressed the lack of a drug/alcohol problem as a means to express that you truly are a hard worker, which i am sure you are. I hope that knowing that love and time is still a valuable gift you can give helps you in the those dark pain times. I hope that us back pain patients can stick together to fight for better treatment overall instead of deciding who is or isn't using drugs as prescribed. The truth of drug addiction vs. physical pain is that both parties are using drugs to alleviate pain , just one group suffers emotional pain . Hang in there,
k
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