Posted by Julie on 8/26/2005, 5:12 pm
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Well, I'm back at school now. I thought that would make things easier but it really hasn't. My friend Patrick put it best when he told me "you were just starting to get used to life at home without her, now you're having to start all over getting used to life here without her." I'm homesick for a home that doesn't really exist anymore. I still feel like this is all a bad dream, like it's not possible for Mom to really be gone. Coming back I've had several awkward "how was your summer?" conversations. I don't want to lie, but people really aren't expecting a "my mom died" in response. My typical is "I survived," though I talked to one of my favorite profs about it. Next week when classes start I'm planning on going down to the health center to ask about counseling. I've been trying to do a good job of staying in touch with Dad. I hate thinking about him home by himself... just Dad and the cat. My friends here are amazing, but I still just feel so alone.
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