Posted by daddy's girl (post) on 5/6/2006, 9:27 pm
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is it a horrible thing that sometimes i just wish it was all over? i just wish that he could breath in for the last time and he could just die peacefully. it would be much better than all the pain he is going through and puts us through. my motives are selfish and i hate myself for it but it hurts, it hurts SO bad. i would LOVE to watch cancer burn--i mean literally BURN! AHHHHH!!!!! SOMETIMES I JUST WANT TO SCREAM AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS!!!!!!!!!! its hard for me not to be mad at him these days. the fact that we arent getting along PLUS school PLUS work PLUS helping mom take on all his old chores (like mowing, cutting wood, taking the trash to the dump) is killing me. i cant imagine how hard it must be for her. it doesnt bother us to do his work. what bothers us is the fact that he cant. i just wish he didnt have to suffer. please tell me if i'm wrong and selfish
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