Posted by Jennifer Well this is my first time like putting my feelings up for a lot of people to see like about my mom and stuff. She has a brain Tumor and has for like 8 years now. She had like 3 surgeries and radiation this summer. It didn't phase me, I'm not gonna lie. I was in therapy and didn't have ne thing to say about it. I talk to my mom frequently, and I am gonna get more and more info on what's going on because honestly i didn't care all that much up until this point and i don't know how much it will help if i have any news from doctors and stuff 'cause they will prob jsut use some lingo that i don't understand at all, but i dunno readin posts from people here it seems like u all like need to know aobut what's going on w/ ur mothers and fathers. Last week i found my mom on the kitchen floor w/ her head cracked open and blood streaming out. The weirdest thing was that she was conscious pretty much. A little dizzzy, but conscious. I called an ambulence and i think that is what has brought the downfall of my life basically. Now my mother is un able to do ne thing except walk, talk, eat and sleep. The only person in the house is me and my mother. We have people to help my mother, but they are not here to help me. I feel bad for my cousin bec i know she doesn't want to be here or something but she is. Well what is like killing me right now is that I probably have become somwhat ocd. Like i have to cook dinner every night now and afterward clean up the whole kitchen all by myself while my mother sleeps or talks on the phone. I just feel like it's totally unfair and it's not my job. I'm 17 and i'm trying to get into college and this is not helping me. I just wish I could get some help for myself because i know i can't leave the kitchen uncleaned, but i also don't want to do it by myself every night. Mabye some nights i would be able to but tonght just killed me. I am also preparing for SATs and I have no time to study for that on top of homework and applying to college. My life is a heuge mess. All my friends are asking when I'm going to come out to party and i'm jsut like NO!! Wow this is getting really long, but the last point i want to make is that like my mom has help all day long like today the hose cleaner was taking her to various docotor's appointments and such, but she never go around to cleaning the house. this is where I come in because i can't handle a messy place it really bothers me. I have to change it and i partly blame my mother for making me that way. She taught me that i can't leave the kitchen until it's clean and all that kind of stuff. and i can't leave the responsibility up to anyone else. It really is killing me. And i don't feel like the people who are here are making it easier for me. My mom wanted them here because she said it would make it easier, but it hasen't, so I don't knowwwww..... blahhhh Yea so i try not to deal w/ it as much as possible but it is becoming more and more apparent in my life.... and it really sucks! Love
on 11/15/2005, 12:40 am
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Hey whoever's reading this
I can't party now! i have to take care of my mom and if i'm not doing that I have to apply to college and if i'm not doing that i have to study for the SAT or work on school work.
Jenny
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