Posted by Ann on 5/29/2001, 6:11 pm Why, after a successful start, do I fall again? In the end, I feel it's because I do not draw a line that I refuse to cross. It's like, if you were given the wrong change (too much) at the shop, would you tell them? (I would.) If you didn't notice till you got home, would you go back? (If it was a lot, I probably would, maybe.) See right there, where's that line that says if I have money that's not mine I'll return it? Where's the integrity? Where's the self dicipline? Other people call it will power, I call it being honest with myself. One day I'll get there. Or else, I'm destined to relive the horrors of week 1 over and over - what a punishment. Joy, QuitNet
Integrity and self dicipline, I feel, form a big part of keeping a quit. I think I've made 50 days twice this year, but don't count on it - I don't keep track of the failures anymore. Today is day 1 after 3 weeks relapse.
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