Posted by Bubb on 5/25/2001, 9:10 am When Judy snatched us away and burst our little bubbles with her post, my immediate thought was one of deep disappointment. No, not in Judy. My disappointment was in the fact that regardless of how secure we may think other people are in their quits, the beast is among us and there is no guarantee of future success. I don't care who you are. I know Judy is strong. I know Judy is quite intelligent and knows what life is all about. I also know she is human, has an addiction, and is not any more immune to the beast than anyone else. Robyn lost a quit of over 2 years. Vince stumbled and fell. I've read posts of people who started smoking again after having been quit for 8 and 10 years. A natural question of super newbies is ... 'How much time has to pass before I get through a day without thinking about smoking?' The truth is, at least apparently for me, is that it'll be never. No, I don't suffer cravings. I'm not biting my finger nails. I'm not in a fog for the lack of nicotine in my system. I'm calmer. I'm more in control. I'm free. Regardless, I'm still an ex-junkie.
I can hear him. His voice is faint but I can hear him. He's calling my name. There's a desperation in his tone yet it's quite convincing.
I know in comparison I'm only a rookie at this non-smoking stuff, but I'm afraid in 10 years, I'm going to have to be just as vigilant then as I am at this moment.
Jimpops, Granny and others here have to deal with diabetes on a daily basis. Some folks (me included), have to take medication each day to avoid dropping dead. A day doesn't pass without diabetics having to think about sugar levels. A day doesn't pass without my having to take a handful of pills. There are some things in life which require daily attention. For me, smoking is one of them. We all have to watch diets, get exercise, and perform the maintenance necessary to keep our minds and spirits on a healthy path. Our survival depends on it. Our daily mission is to also keep the beast at bay. Like it or not, the people at this board have a distinction. We have 'the mark' of being current or ex-smokers. Like it or not, we have a cross to bear and have to deal with its insecurities. He who walks on a path of nonchalance is not long for this world.
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