Posted by bridget
on 5/25/2001, 6:40 am
that must have been obvious to you guys
my obsessing
picked up
i am just beating myself up too too much about it
i think i need to let go of the bashing up im doing on myself.
need to get into a positive place about myself
i dont want to give up giving up
my head is so screwed up with the failure message
i was white knuckling today
i am so angry with my sister
i started thinking about what has gone on and i got angrier and angrier
and yep you guessed it went and bought a pack, just about vomited on the first one
i dont want to waste your guys good efforts and time and energy on me and my smoking
i seem to think that you can come here if youre going to make the effort to stop but if im not stopped whats the point in coming here
yesterday i went and organised a meeting room for a stop smoking support group here in my local suburb, even if i only turn up , maybe others will in time, is that a crazy idea or what, im still smoking and i'm doing that, im just willing to do anything it takes, but obviously not enough or i would stop.
oh well maybe i simply keep coming here and reading and eventually the message will get into my mind again.
you guys are awesome
im so proud of what youve acheived
i admire you enormously
your kiwi friend
bridget
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