Posted by Drakena the Destroyer
on 12/10/2008, 7:35 pm
67.193.185.117
A female enters the Arena, which seems empty due to lack of visitors. Clad in her casual black flares and black top, her dark hair hangs long and loose, and carrying a pen and scroll, she seems normal. Noticing that there is no one around, she unrolls the scroll and clicks her pen for writing. Drakena, intent on writing a message for anyone who cares to take the time to visit the Arena, darts her wide tongue over her teeth and braces as she concentrates on her scroll.
To anyone who comes upon this scroll, I have a lot on my mind lately and I wish to make amends of what was left unclear between the other visitors and myself. I intend to confess my sins. Even though I'm not religious, I do know that if I admit my faults logically, I can at least straighten things out with those I clashed words with.
First, I am a difficult person to understand. There were times when I probably didn't provide exact information on my messages, which had some people assuming I meant something different. I never wanted to get involved in flame wars, I was only interested in discussing different subjects, but sometimes other visitors would criticize me. Pardon my boldness, but I do not like being criticized, if one cannot understand me, then one should ask of me what I meant instead of ragging on me. If asking me what I meant is just too hard, or embarrassing, then don't bother me. I deeply regret misleading people in the past, I am going to provide information more clearly from now on, I wish to avoid misunderstandings and flame wars.
Another sin I should confess is my envy of others. I see others getting recognition for their work such as art, fan fiction, and web sites, and I just feel jealous and unnoticed. Sometimes I just lash out at everyone because all the jealousy makes me so frustrated and it is hurtful to those I lash at, which I feel guilty about. I know that my work has been noticed, I also work at improving what I do, it's just that getting my work recognized requires patience that I lack. I try not to get so frustrated because I envy someone these days, it's not worth my time. Hopefully those who I offended with my lashing will forgive me.
For most of my treacherous life, I have been hateful to and hated by others. When I was in elementary school, I was made fun of because I had different interests and I couldn't afford the latest trend in clothing. It was because of that, I was often cranky. Even some adults were verbally, and sometimes physically, abusive to me over my smallest mistakes. So I turned out to be very bitter and very shy throughout high school. I only became comfortable around other people when I started college.
I graduated from college, with distinction, and it was very satisfying. Not many people make it through the Graphic Design classes, but I did even when I was scared during my first year. Also, I am taking martial arts, it is good exercise, helps me relieve stress, and builds confidence. I made it to black in October, because I never wanted to give up, and I also assist with the children's class several times a week. Besides my graduation and black belt, I achieved a lot of things. A poem I wrote was published in a book and I'm getting graphic design jobs more often.
The Arena might seem empty, but I have not forgotten it. The Arena was made so that fans of the Spyro the Dragon series could come together and discuss related topics. I'm still fond of the fandom, I might try out that new Legend of Spyro series soon, but right now I'm very into the Dragonlance series. It's a fascinating fantasy that I enjoy reading, even if everyone else might not have a clue about it.
I have written everything that everyone needs to know. Remember, just ask me to describe anything that's hard to understand. I hope I have straightened things out. Now I shall be on my way.
Drakena rolls up the scroll and ties it to one of the sticks in the Arena for anyone to find. As she turns to leave through the exit, she casts a shadow shaped like a devious she dragon most Arena visitors have known as the Dragoness of Doom.
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