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Posted by apaman Now she does about all of the housework and bill paying. I do morning dishes, make our bed and take care of the garbage, I fold and put away about half the laundry that she washes. She does all the dusting, vaccuuming, bathrooms, cooking and sorting and washing clothes. As a man I can't be trusted with laundry. She has not had drinks and then done any sexual acts to/for/with me. She has asked me too, I just don't want that. I want her to do it because she wants to do it. Because she finds me sexually attractive, because she feels I deserve it!!! Does that make sense? I think she can allow me to make love to her because she has never had that from any other man. She has been forced to do OS by a former BF. She was raped by this same former BF when she finally got up enough nerve to leave him. It was very bad, as I eluded to above. Then of course the entire A, the OM got her drunk, slipped her some "buzz" and she performed flawlessly for him. The one time I watched in disbelief as not only did she give him some major OS but also AS as well. All the while she was telling him she loved him, she wanted him soooo bad, she was all his. Caroline, I feel as if I don't mean enough to her to give to. That it is too inconvenient or messy or ??? for me to be worthy of it. It can't be that it brings back memories of the A because she SWEARS she can't remember anything except for that one night when she did it without drinking any alcohol. I don't mean to go on and on, but it gets old from time to time and I get frustrated and come here to blow off some steam. If you got to see the milder of the photos that I listed and later edited out, I think you will understand why. Well I better get to bed, Thanks for your help.
on 10/23/2004, 1:37 am, in reply to "I don't get it..."
Well, let me say I think you are right to some extent. She is very selfish when it comes to our relationship. I give all the love. I say all the I love yous, just to get an "I love you too".
I give all the sex. I give the tenderness. I give the encouragements. I overlook and bite my tongue all day long. I run interference with the kids.
You know, when I asked her about that she said she wanted to do it for him, she had feelings for him. Well, what about me?
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