Posted by starlover
on February 16, 2008, 8:17 pm
79.67.212.171
it's so long since i've posted here. it seems a bit dead 
things have been a bit strange lately. i've gone back to one of my old ways and it reminded me of clairey and the lovely care package she sent to 'princess caroline' while i was at uni and having a terrible time.
i haven't been cutting though, i haven't since (i think) hallowe'en 2006. i'm not normally one for keeping milestones, but it seems so long ago. i ended up in hospital that night and got referred to see a psychiatrist. my first appointment was november 2007... and they call me crazy, hehe 
i officially have borderline personality disorder (i could've told them that anyway, i've known that for years) and am on a low dose of risperidone.
like i said though, things are strange. my dad is dying of cancer, and it hasn't really hit me yet. i've been throwing myself into being on a crazy diet and exercise regime instead of dealing with it.
i also ran into my old drug dealer last night and bought some e's from him. they don't work on my medication though, i tried once a couple of months ago. don't know what i'll do with them, either go off my meds for a few days and have myself an ace birthday next month, or use them for going to the gym or something.
how is everyone? i miss you all.
if anyone remembers me / wants to write, i'm living in paisley now (flat 3/1, 8 canal terrace, paisley, pa1 2hs)
caroline
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