First I want to welcome you to the site. So sorry for your diagnosis. When you first come on the site look to the right and it will say "Meeting Place". This is the area of the site that has the most activity. Please post there so you will get more responses.
Now, for the bc...I am so sorry you had to have a bilateral mastectomy. I also had that last March and I know it's not much fun. I did not have to have radiation because my nodes were clear however I did have the Oncotype test and it was determined that chemo would increase my odds of living longer so I chose to have the chemo.
Please try to calm down about the chemo (I know, easier said than done). Chemo is no longer as bad as it used to be. They have wonderful drugs now to help you get through the yuckies. I never threw up once. I was a little nauseated but never threw up. Ahhh the advances of modern medicine!
I am by no means telling you that this is a picnic but believe me you will be amazed at how fast time goes by and it's over.
If you remain anxious you can ask your Onc for something to help ease the anxiety.
Like I said before, post on the main Meeting Place area so you will get more responses. We are here for you Robin every step of the way. The ladies on this site are amazing! Compassionate, smart, warm, funny and willing to help one of our sisters through anything they need.
Please post often.