Posted by Becky (post) on 5/12/2008, 12:09 pm
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You know most of the time I think I have a pretty good handle on this fight we're in. I'm in charge - I'm staying positive - I'm going to be okay and get through this. Well today, I'm not having one of those days. Is that normal ya'll? I woke up this morning, not after an especially good night of sleep, nauseated, hands and fingers numb, looked in the mirror saw my bald head and just lost it. I usually am a person who has got it together, keep things planned out, got it all lined up and ready to go. I have no control of this, I have no way to plan! If anything, I am learning to let go of that part of my life and literally take moment by moment and enjoy the moments as I have them. There are some postings on the main board that you must read that did help me today and I did not go to work today and I plan to do some serious "living in the moment" today and I know it will make me feel better. Just had to ramble on a little bit with you guys and make sure that my feelings are normal and that "losing it" is okay now and then. Trying to keep strong thoughts. Becky
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