Posted by Allen on 5/21/2009, 6:16 pm
It's been nearly half a year now since I've learned of my wife's brief affair, which happened nearly 5 years ago now. I don't think about it as often as I did at first, but it's still something that runs through my mind pretty much daily. The anger and pain aren't there all the time, but crop up frequently yet too. At first I thought I was feeling better, but many times, too often I think, I can't look at her without wondering why she would do that to me, and since she did, does she still love me like she used to, or are we just kidding ourselves? She's an attractive woman, and I love to look at her, but many times I catch myself still picturing her with him when I'm just trying to admire her. I wish I could just fast forward another 5 or 6 months, and hopefully things will be much better. We do have younger kids, and we both really only want one marriage in our life, and I think we both still love each other. I just wish I could look at her the way I used to, I don't know what will happen if I find that I can't ever shake this. I think someone else recently made the comment that things can be good after infidelity, but are really never the same again, that's really very depressing.
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