Posted by Abby on 6/12/2006, 10:01 pm
Well, I was so looking forward to a good weekend after my tough week and it ended up OK but not before it got worse. Long story short, I overheard my H on the phone talking to afriend in averyquiet voice, I heard him say "I was banging some girl" and then he laughed. It was like dday all over again. I got drunk had a major meltdown, cried and screamed at him that he was an insensitive scum-sucking B, cried more screamed more until he couldn't take it anymore and he went into the bedroom and shut the door. I felt so humiliated that he laughed about it to his friend, I felt like the butt of some joke. I mean he is insensitive. He just doesn't think that his actions or words can hurt me like they do. I feel like I'm not important in his life. He did try to make it up to me by taking me someplaceI wanted to go the next day but I'm still stinging. I almost lost it at work today. I know I shouldn't have lashed out like I did, and I promised that I would make a great effort not to do that again but I need to make him understand that whatever he does or says, even if I don't know it, has effect on me and our marriage. Of course, he knew in the back of his mind that what he said was hurtful because his voiced dropped real low, where before, and I really wasn't paying any attention to his conversation until I heard his voice drop. We haven't really talked about it anymore. I'm going to start IC because I don't know how to handle our recovery, since he had the heart attack and he's really trying not to get too stressed. I don't want to stress him either, his physical health is most important, but my mental health is important, too.
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