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Posted by Alli on 8/4/2003, 11:52 am Any advice for cutting communication completely? I am ready to move on, and it just doesn't stop. He is sugar sweet now,and I feel like a confused chaotic freakshow about it all. I know that this is all part of the game, and I am sad to say it is working. I feel so foolish. I don't feel like I would break down and go back to him, but certainly maintaining contact through email and phone calls isn't helping me to move on. I am really struggling with cutting ties completely, and I don't know why. What could I be afraid of? I keep self-talking that I am okay alone and don't need a relationship to define who I am, and I am feeling that I am okay. But, still what purpose is this serving to me? Thanks for letting me vent. Any words of wisdom would be appreciated. Hope that I didn't ramble as crazily as I feel. Hope everyone is safe and doing well!! Alli
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Okay, so it has now officially been 4 weeks on my own. He found my unlisted phone number, and has called. I cannot give in his power struggles. I have this unfathomable feeling that I have to defend myself, so I constantly engage in his arguements. He has completely turned things around and claims that he did want marriage (told me that he never wanted it and we just were saying we were engaged) and that he did want me to move with him when he got his new job in a different state (told me that he wanted to date long distance for awhile). None of this really matters because the reason I left is because he beat me up, choked me, said I "disgusted" him. Verbally abused me and emotionally played me. Why am I so hung up on the 'change of story' that he is playing.
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