Posted by Wauchula Woman on 8/6/2006, 7:32 pm Oh I don't know. It's like I've managed to set it in my mind that she was dead and now that's hard to undo. Of course I love my mother, but she's done a lot of damage this time out of the chute. I know she's mentally ill or something, I'm not harboring any anger towards her. Curiously, I just feel a detached numbness towards her. I know how hard it was for her to pick up that phone and make herself dial my number, for her that was a major capitulation. I just don't know how to make myself pick up the phone and call her back. And what to say? I want to move cautiously. But I do think, this is an answer to my prayers. lol Imagine how the good Lord works.....I feel certain He planted that dream in his head......a chime and me calling her name, how odd! But so like the Lord. Tangling with Mama though, is like tangling with a rattlesnake. One must proceed very cautiously. Anyhow, pray for my situation with her. Pray I have the strength to make myself call her back and try to work with her to repair this rift. Lisa
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Well, I gotta call from mother yesterday morning, only I didn't hear the message on my cell till this morning before church. She said she'd been having a recurring dream, where there was this beautiful chime and then I said in a quiet voice "Mama". She said I never say anything else. She said she was worried that there was something wrong, that I was in trouble, and that she loved me. She said she loved me four or five times.
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