Posted by Ysera on 10/31/2018, 7:14 am, in reply to "Re: 22"
Eh, you can tout it as "I want to list my problems so others can be thankful" all you want, but just be honest with yourself and admit you want pity and to pretend you don't. |
Yes. This is my exact situation. In fact, I would venture to say that if I laid out what is actually happening at my school you would count yourself as lucky. However, I'm not chronically disappointed or upset. I'm damn pissed! Why? because it didn't used to be this way and no matter what I and my assistant try to do - no matter how much we try to convince the administration that what they are doing is wrong FOR THE STUDENTS - they keep making it worse. It is like they say, "Hey, the band was successful so let's see what they do if we throw this at them." I decided today that I have had enough. I love my students they are great, but the administration is making it nearly impossible to a) be successful b) enjoy teaching and c) create a well structured learning environment (and I am the master at creating a well structured learning environment). Over Thanksgiving I plan on listing all the things the school and district has done to the band program over the past three years. Not to gripe, but help other be grateful for what they have and that they don't have to put up with what I have to.
Anyone know the feeling when you can see where the bar is, you have the knowledge and skill of how to get there, and your teaching situation basically handcuffs you just out of reach of that next level?
I feel like I live there. Between all the factors in my community that suppress system-wide excellence (SES, tax base, value of education, community work ethic, budget, lack of staffing, instrument quality, scheduling issues, administrative support, etc), I feel like weíre already operating at peak efficiency, and itís about 3 steps short of where it could (and in my opinion, should) be. I know your first response is ďair up the tiresĒ or ďbe willing to work longer/harder/smarterĒ, but these kids deserve a staff that invests in them and is really good at what they do - and my staff is - and there really isnít any way to work harder/longer/ smarter than we are. Itís already a light shade of McGuyver in our band hall, man.
Iím not really upset so much as chronically disappointed. The kids are great. I just wish I could provide them a better situation than theyíve been dealt.