Iím in year 4 overall, year two at this specific school. Taken a band to UIL every year and all have continued to improve and achieve the highest levels of success in their history. He has made jokes publicity about firing me. Then weeks later told me a would be non renewed when that was not true. Told me I would be put on a growth plan when that was also false. He told me he had been fielding complaints about me all year last year but canít name a single complaint or where it has come from. He said he is not allowed to tell me. But how can I fix anything if I donít know? I have been critiziced in front of students, parents, and staff. I have been accused by him of being vindictive because I tried to get another jon and and because I told him I was uncomfortable with certain conversations that were occurring in the office. Also, Iíve been told Iím ignoring my duties, which is not true but I canít finish every delegated task in a day. Iím working myself to death and this job is all Iím able to do. I was told on two entirely separate occasions that my opinion did not matter. I also was told that Iím never around. I have began to eat lunch in the teachers lounge as a reprieve from the toxic environment in the band hall. He has complained that Iím not there during lunch and said that if Iím not there during lunch than I can never expect to know whatís going on because that is when he plans. I was teaching the non varsity last year, now Iím teaching the sub-non despite the second band going to UIL and having he most success in school history. I have had parents, students, and colleagues approach me because they sense the tension. Had a kid last year tell me in sectionals that the entire section could tell that the HD hated me and then the entire section proceeded to tell me why they thought that.
I should additionally add that he does not like another director within the school district. He has said he wants to make that director so miserable that they leave. ďI want to run their ass off,Ē was a real comment made in the office one day. It is now apparent to me that he feels the same about me. And sadly he has entirely succeeded at that goal. I am absolutely miserable. In every respect. Hardly able to get myself out of bed to come to work. Keep getting terrible migraines because Iím so upset and depressed. Iím in a terribly unhealthy place. I wonít be coming back next year, sometimes I donít know if Iíll be coming back tomorrow. But I had really hoped I could make it through this year with my career in tact. Iím starting to worry that is no longer possible.
I could keep going to be honest because that is totally not everything. It is just some highlights. Again, I am fully aware that I make mistakes and am human but Iím also only a fourth year teacher and there is a way to be professional and treat others with respect and dignity.