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Re: Defeated and depressed
Sounds like your head director wants you gone....maybe because youíre doing something he doesnít like, or maybe itís just a personal conflict.
If you love teaching and want to give it another shot somewhere else, I would sit down with him/her and have a candid conversation about what youíre doing he/she doesnít like. From there, you can work on that aspect. You can either work to improve your situation at the current school or work hard for the kids and for the chance to get a good recommendation. Donít leave mid-year...bad idea for your futuring hiring and youíll screw the kids and program over.
I am contemplating resigning. Coming to work is taking every ounce of energy I have. I once loved teaching band but the person I work with is more than just unkind to me. I hate to use this word because I know it is a huge trigger word in public education right now. However, this head director bullies me constantly.
Please don't think I am suggesting I do no wrong and entirely free from blame. I know I do make mistakes, I am human. We all make mistakes and that is one lesson we teach our kids daily. However, there is still a way to approach those you work with in a professional manner.
I feel absolutely defeated on a daily basis. All I am able to do is go to work and come home. I can't handle anything else because I am so unhappy and to be very honest, depressed. I can not wait for the day to be over so I can go home and climb into bed.
To be entirely honest, I love everything about my job except my head director. I get along with everyone else and I do love being a band director. However, I am already absolutely miserable and just do not know if I can make it to the end of the year. I am constantly fighting the inner voice that is telling me to resign.