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Posted by Small Town Sim on 12/22/2006, 6:56 pm
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so depressed... i probably have never said it... but i'm only 41, but have been ill for the last 4 years. at first no one knew what it was or could diagnose it. just treated the pain as much as possible. you know when it starts like that- there isn't going to be any good news following.
any way- i don't want to even type it. i'll just say there is no cure. there used to be hope. but i haven't had that for a while now. my sims are an escapism. before this happened to me- i was important in the community. traveled all over the us. was a systems admin. won a gates grant, met the gates people, and now... i'm no one. with no income and no future looking at me.
but when i play sims, create and stuff, it makes me feel kinda' important again.
any way- today is a very, very bad day... i hurt so much its hard not to cry or become overly depressed. being so sick and having no life except kids... i no longer have any friends so i am lonely. my husband doesn't understand this. he works all night and sleeps during the day. when he's off work- he's able to go out and do whatever he wants.
oh, well... i'd better stop now. i'm venting. that's all just venting.
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