On of my first considerations was that from first grade in school I was more than interested in the opposite sex. I had no idea what was natural or normal in that regard because my parents were too embarrassed to mention sex to their children, and workers never mentioned sex either.
So there I was, a full 14 years of age, knowing that I had connective feelings toward one or another of the oposite sex and on the verge of offering to become a life-long single preacher. And it was not hard to see it coming full tilt - I as a worker would stay in homes where there were children of my own age that I would likely have such strong connective feelings towards -- and that being highly trusted (even worshiped) by such children as well as their parents. I knew that if not soon, not long after becoming a worker, I WOULD BE STRONGLY TEMPTED to run amuck sexually. And I n eeded such a temptation about as much as I needed crucifixion - by the way, to get to the verge of offing for the work, I had satified myself that I would be willing to be crucified - I wanted very much to copy Jesus in everything, including crucifixion (what 14 year-olds think like). So it was not unwillingness to be crucified that blocked my offering for the work - it was the knowledge that sexual temptation would be impossible for me to resist unless God completely removed all sexual desire from me. And by the time I realized that that was one prayer God was answering "no" to, I was old enough to notice that workers frequently contradicted God's word and insisted that they had "revelation" to do so by.
I not only never offered for the work, but was soon following God's word ALONE right out of 2x2ism.
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