Re: what are some of the differences. . .
Posted by ontheotherside on September 18, 2009, 3:05 pm, in reply to "what are some of the differences. . . "
at 19 I told a friend I was gay.a coupla hours later I was rolling on a beach with another druken sailor (i was in the navy).
I don't know why I did that(cause he was eww.) I knew who the gay women on my duty station were, even hung out with them, and not to be a wise ass, just truth, we played softball together.
At 36 a few weeks or so before my marriage, I told another friend I was gay or at least bisexual. we had been talking about the lack of sex in her life, and I offered to fix it for her.lol, that December I got married. I don't know why I would come out and go back in, lack of understanding? lack of resources.fear? By the way the friend I told at 36, has a sister who has been living with her partner for years.
Maybe it's a love thing. perhaps for me the coming out would be permanent if I had someone to stay out for? Right now I can't say I'm out, cause I haven't told my husband. I'm working on tht conversation. I've told other college friends,and tried to tell my sister, but she won't hear me.
Like I said, I don't think I can be "out" unless I have a good reason to be, and my "own truth" right now isn't enough. coming out to the people I did, at the times I did, were to clarify for me what was happening and why it was happening. the difference was each time I came out I went back in. this time it is verrrrrry hard for me to put the gay girl back in the closet, she wants out.
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