Posted by 32flavors on November 7, 2009, 9:33 pm
Well....it began with an awkward hello, followed by her holding me in her arms as I cried, and ended with a hug and an I love you. But in between those moments, here are some excerpts ~
- Why would you have feelings like this, when you know it's wrong?
- This is a sin, it's wicked. You have to turn away from this wickedness, and seek God.
- You need to continue to pray. You have to repent, and until you repent and turn away from this sin, He will not hear your prayers. He will turn His back on you.
- You need to only listen to the Christian radio station. That's it, no other stations. And you need to read your Bible every day, maybe twice a day; but that's it, no other books.
- You've allowed yourself to have these desires, and you have to turn away from them.
- Do you even care for your husband at all?
- During this month apart, and this weekend, do you even miss your daughter?
- You know the story of Sodom and Gomorra (sp?). God destroyed everyone in that story. And Lot's wife? She turned back and looked, b/c she had those sinful desires, and He turned her into a pillar of stone.....(at which point, I corrected my mother, and said, 'Salt. He turned Lot's wife into a pillar of salt.')
- Your feelings don't matter. You are a mother. You are a wife. You have responsibilties. You have to take care of your family. That's what the wife does.
- I am going to Heaven, whether it be when I die, or when He comes back, but I won't see you there if you continue in this lifestyle.
Now, this is what I completely expected. I know my mother. And this was not a shock. But that doesn't mean it didn't hurt like hell (the hell I apparently am going to).
Anyway, my point is, in your responses, if any, be gentle, as this is still my mother, the one who gave me life. I would like any advice on how to handle her from here. Maybe there are some books I could buy her? Some research articles I could email her?
I love my mother. I do. But she is strong. And unwavering in her faith. And these things she said to me, I doubt she regrets any of it, b/c this is what she truly believes.
Just what do I do from here?
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