Posted by SassyMom on November 7, 2009, 5:36 pm
I'm sitting at home in my pajamas still...Yep, that's right I'm still in my pjs at 3:30 p.m. on a Saturday. I feel so sappy today...It always hits me on the weekends. I went in to see my therapist a week ago (after not seeing her for 2 months) and spoke to her about this depression that seems to have increased lately. We talked alot about my xmgf and how much I still love and miss her. We also talked about my own life and changes I've made. I really wish my circumstances were different right now. I feel like I'm sludging through thick tar on some days. Sigh.
I did go to support group in Berkeley last Wednesday and loved it. The ladies there were so authentic and compassionate. It was so nice. I'll try to go to these meetings regularly. My H really felt I need to go to some kind of coming out group that would help me. It did. It's funny because he also attends a "straight spouse" group of his own and I bake him brownies to take to his meetings. The group had a chuckle when they heard I had made them. I told him to tell them that the brownies wouldn't make them "gay"...they laughed. So, in my own group I told them I'd bring brownies next time and I told them my brownies wont make them "straight". They had a good laugh. God, I miss laughing...and smiling. I miss a lot of things. Someday.
So, what exciting things is everyone doing today? I'm still waiting for glittergirl to tell us how her big night was! And 32flavors...I hope you are doing well. I hope things are going well with the gf too. Hugs.
Okay, I think I'm going to schedule a massage...My shoulders are so flippin sore! I carry so much stress around, it just builds up.
Having a blah day,
Sassy
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