Posted by Real Deal on November 7, 2009, 9:21 am, in reply to "Moon, RD, Virago, other friends. The ball is rolling."
Jen,
As I sip my morning Joe, I can feel your spirit's energy right through my screen. I practically need sunglasses to read this. I can feel the beam of light.
Its funny how when something just shifts. There's no "if, ands or buts". No second guessing, no worry, no pain, just a course set for True North, followed by a sense of internal peace.
Jen, I sincerely wish all the happiness and contentment for you and your family. Thank you for inviting me in.
Also, you know how I like to hand out nicknames? My new nick name for you is “Jenson”! Playful, dashing and strong. Jenson…rolls off the keyboard. Its waaay better than JBers…Jenson whaddya think? Because your not JB, You are Jen.
I am sincerely happy for you Jen. Truly.
Real Deal
--Previous Message--
: My therapist was thrilled for me. She
: absolutely sees me in a different place with
: all of this. She'll have my SOC letter ready
: for the endocrinologist, dated after Dec. 1,
: when our new health insurance kicks in.
:
: Before, I was terrified of Laurie leaving
: me, the kids rejecting me. Now, I'm simply
: not. I've worked through it all. There's
: space in my relationships for me to do this
: now, with love. They've changed. I've
: changed. I have a great support network in
: place. I'm ready to be totally honest about
: the one last thing that continues to be
: deceiving in my life (at least to others).
: My gender identity.
:
: Next step: Sunday. Talking with a room full
: of transguys about the pros and cons of
: transitioning. I want to be able to speak
: with conviction about my plan not to fully
: transition. Believe me, some will take it as
: an affront. Most won't. But some will. Some
: will think I'm a pussy.
:
: But I'm very clear about what I want and
: don't want. And I really do love those guys.
:
: BTW, I meant what I said about my name. I
: don't want -- like I always thought I would
: -- to start using the name "Ben."
: Ben was my boy name. Ben was my adolescent
: name. I want to leave Ben behind with his/my
: childhood. But I don't want to be a set of
: initials forever either. "JB"
: reflected my state of gender flux, I guess.
: I find myself ready to move on from that as
: well.
:
: So, I told my therapist tonight that I'm
: going to legally change my name to Jen, and
: drop the "nifer." I'm also
: considering changing the spelling of my
: middle name from Rae to Ray. Jen's ambiguous
: enough for me. Hell, Bishop Gene Robinson's
: first name is "Vicky" (for his
: father, Victor).
:
: Keep 'em guessin, I always say ...
:
: Thanks again for the support, guys.
:
: Jen
:
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