Posted by upsidedown on November 6, 2009, 6:34 pm, in reply to "Moon, RD, Virago, other friends. The ball is rolling."
Message modified by user upsidedown November 6, 2009, 6:34 pm
I'm so excited for you! I am glad the T visit went soooo well and that you are in such a good, solid place with all of this. I can't imagine how it must feel to reach a decision and take solid steps.
And, for the record, I think the name Jen is great! LOL... honestly though, I have always been happy I don't have a real 'girly' name. When I was younger I was Jenny and there are a few who still call me that but mostly I'm Jen.
Yeah for you!
jen
--Previous Message--
: My therapist was thrilled for me. She
: absolutely sees me in a different place with
: all of this. She'll have my SOC letter ready
: for the endocrinologist, dated after Dec. 1,
: when our new health insurance kicks in.
:
: Before, I was terrified of Laurie leaving
: me, the kids rejecting me. Now, I'm simply
: not. I've worked through it all. There's
: space in my relationships for me to do this
: now, with love. They've changed. I've
: changed. I have a great support network in
: place. I'm ready to be totally honest about
: the one last thing that continues to be
: deceiving in my life (at least to others).
: My gender identity.
:
: Next step: Sunday. Talking with a room full
: of transguys about the pros and cons of
: transitioning. I want to be able to speak
: with conviction about my plan not to fully
: transition. Believe me, some will take it as
: an affront. Most won't. But some will. Some
: will think I'm a pussy.
:
: But I'm very clear about what I want and
: don't want. And I really do love those guys.
:
: BTW, I meant what I said about my name. I
: don't want -- like I always thought I would
: -- to start using the name "Ben."
: Ben was my boy name. Ben was my adolescent
: name. I want to leave Ben behind with his/my
: childhood. But I don't want to be a set of
: initials forever either. "JB"
: reflected my state of gender flux, I guess.
: I find myself ready to move on from that as
: well.
:
: So, I told my therapist tonight that I'm
: going to legally change my name to Jen, and
: drop the "nifer." I'm also
: considering changing the spelling of my
: middle name from Rae to Ray. Jen's ambiguous
: enough for me. Hell, Bishop Gene Robinson's
: first name is "Vicky" (for his
: father, Victor).
:
: Keep 'em guessin, I always say ...
:
: Thanks again for the support, guys.
:
: Jen
:
: 
