Posted by glittergirl on November 6, 2009, 9:37 am
I feel like I'm on a teeter-totter and have no idea which way I'll teeter at any moment!
I have a question I am debating. . .what do you all think? What does it mean to "do the right thing" vs. "doing the best thing"? Are they one and the same?
And, sorry, I just have to vent! Yesterday, I had a morning totally questioning if I even have the courage to leave (really, at this point, I'm not sure it's all up to me as H gets the picture that there will be no physical desire/contact from me). Or if I'm such a chicken of the unknown that I would stay (boy would I be disgusted with myself if that happens). Then, last night while driving home after work, all I could think was, I wish I was going to the apartment. H had to work late and I hurried through all my "chores" so I could be in the bedroom and not cross paths with him too much.
And, I opened a package from my xgf. She sent me back all the gifts I had given her and hid a tiny piece of paper in one of the cards that said "I can save you". What is that? Ugh. I might run into her tonight as it is First Friday (over 2000 lesbians in one place. . .the closest place to heaven I have ever been!).
Just wanted to vent! Happy Friday!!
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