Posted by Roxanne on November 3, 2009, 10:31 pm, in reply to "Rene30- My Story"
Thanks for sharing, my gf could totally relate to the sex thing with H. I know she looses part of herself everytime she "has" to have sex with him. One day she will snap and will have had enough, but for now its the mess she is in. Its nice to hear your perspective on this.
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: Hi Rene.. I have been married for 10 years
: and have 3 small kids...3, 5, & 7. It
: hasn't been the best marraige..lots of
: emotional & mental abuse. My H also has
: a bad temper that has never come out
: directly at me or the kids..but has resulted
: in broken items around the house. I met my
: GF (a LLL) 2 years ago at work. I felt an
: instant attraction to her. I shrugged it
: off, assuming it was just my imagination
: that was running a muck with me. We worked
: closely together on a project for 6 months
: and became very good friends. However, one
: day she told me that she had feelings for me
: and wanted to know how I felt. I couldn't
: deny that I felt the same. However, I was
: married...she lives with her partner and
: cheating was not something I had ever done
: before...and it wasn't going to happen now.
: That didn't last very long. I could not
: hold back my feelings for her...and she
: could not hold back either. We have now
: been 'together' for 16 months. We love each
: other. I adore her. I can not imagine life
: without her. However, the situation is so
: complicated. I don't want to hurt my kids,
: she doesn't want to hurt her child. She
: can't afford to leave for financial reasons.
: I can't seem to get my H to move out..even
: when I asked for a separation. So we each
: remain in our current situations and are
: biding time...treading water...and trying to
: enjoy the moments we do have together.
: Lately, the confusion and utter insanity of
: it all is getting the best of me. I have
: days where I just can't take it anymore and
: "IM DONE" comes flying out of my
: mouth. Though in my heart I know I'll never
: be done with her. I have many days where I
: feel like I've made a complete mess of my
: life...that I am someone I do not even
: recognize. A liar...a cheater...a sneak...a
: fake. How can loving someone so
: much...cause so much destruction? It's a
: love I just cannot let go of right now.
: It's a connection I've never had with anyone
: else.
:
: My situation at home is at times torture.
: My H says he loves me and wants sex often.
: I try to dodge it as best I can. But in
: trying to keep the peace...sometime I just
: feel like I have no choice. This causes
: major issues between my GF and I...for
: obvious reasons.
:
: I need to stop...because I could go on and
: on... I hope this is enough info for
: you...maybe too much??
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