Posted by amyruby on November 3, 2009, 10:14 pm, in reply to "amyruby"
Thank you for asking, LC.
I'm so long-winded. The short answer is that it got better because I was sleeping in the house with the babies and taking care of daily life. But I still have much work to do on getting more sleep. I have to inch my way into making my own bedtime rituals.
This was my long answer:
Better because I slept in my babies' house Thursday through Monday night. Often I was in the room with them because they all had the flu and kept waking up in the middle of the night having difficulty breathing. So although I was waking up often, I was sleeping restfully.
Also, Thursday afternoon I had a session with my T. Some days I feel like therapy is a waste of money because I repeat the same crap over and over again. On Thursday, it was worth every penny. For numerous reasons unrelated to my GF's and my actual relationship, I thought she and I were broken. I thought I must sleep with my husband to put the marriage back together. The T put all my emotions into perspective. That helped me get more sleep.
I still have work to do on my sleep patterns. I'm working on taking care of the basics in my life. First, I'm getting stuff done (incredibly helpful) and secondly, the getting stuff done keeps my mind from spiraling out of control.
Oh and I signed and sent off my divorce petition papers - no more immediate thorn in my side. I'll be divorced April 2010. Also, since GF's landlady won't allow babies to sleep at GF's house, I decided to spend more time in the babies' house. I made myself a better place to sleep in their house now. It feels good to have a few things settled, things that were keeping me up at night. Proper, permanent living arrangements will have to be worked on later. Right now, I have a plan I'm happy with until that time.
Thanks again for asking.
I think of you often, hoping you're doing okay.
-amyruby
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