Posted by amyruby on November 3, 2009, 1:19 pm, in reply to "Just talking...."
You're taking great steps and it sounds like the conversation with your mom went well. When family is willing to listen, the pain of coming out is a wee-bit lessened. Congratulations on making great strides, despite the less-than-supportive H.
You sound good.
Take care,
amyruby
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: Just making chit chat, because I can't talk on
: the phone to one of my friends about all of
: this today (hubby issitting right beside me,
: so vocalizing any of this is not okay...)
:
: I am leaving in about an hour to meet with a
: pastor about me being a lesbian. He is a
: liberal(gay) pastor,and so I am hoping he
: can really help me see how me being a
: lesbian AND a Christian is okay. My husband
: and I had an argument last night, again,
: about the sin of it all, and I really want
: to understand it all better.
:
: I am very nervous that after this, my
: husband will want me to tell him every
: little thing I discussed with the pastor. I
: am sure it would lead to an argument,
: because H is not even remotely happy about
: the pastor I have chosen to talk to. But I
: also see this as a sign of me moving in the
: right direction, because a year or 2 ago, I
: would never dream of going to a pastor my
: husband doesn't approve of.
:
: I discussed my *situation* with my mom
: yesterday. She knew years ago that I was
: struggling with my sexuality, but had
: figured that I had shoved it all back in the
: closet for good. She was very supportive and
: says she would rather me sort it out now
: than to look back when I am 50 or 60 and
: wish I had been living my life with honesty
: about who I am.
:
: Today I am feeling really good about the
: decisions I am making. Progress, however
: slow, is being made. :-)
:
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