Posted by amyruby on November 2, 2009, 3:57 pm, in reply to "How Did You Meet Her? What Happened? "
I knew my GF for about 12 years (now 13) before I fell in love with her. She came out as a lesbian about 14 years ago. She is 43 and I'm 40. Although we played softball during that time, I never knew her well because she is quiet.
On July 29, 2008, she came on my backpacking trip with me and some friends. I fell in love with her over a 5-day period. On the 5th night, I told her my feelings and she reciprocated. It felt like coming home to myself. It felt as though my shoulders were tightly squeezed around my neck all my life without me knowing it. I fell in love with her and my shoulders came down.
We had an affair for 2 1/2 months. We broke it off for one month in November. During that time, I determined I was gay and would have to leave my H. GF and I got back together December 7, 2008. I lived bi-weekly with a friend then lived with GF. I still live with her.
This past Saturday, I signed the divorce petition papers. H and I will be divorced April 2010. This past weekend I also thought I would try to sleep with H to get our marriage back together. I couldn't do it.
I still go crazy and have panic attacks, but I keep moving forward. At the moment I'm in a numb stage. I get so overwhelmed with emotions, my body shuts down.
That's the story so far. There are so many chapters to go.
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: Hey All -
: I'm pretty new here and I am really
: enjoying what people write. It blows me
: away. One of the things that interests me
: most is how this phenomenon of falling in
: love with a woman happened to you all. I'm
: still pretty disoriented and confused and
: fuzzy about the whole thing. But I'm
: interested, too. Intrigued. I would love
: to hear some stories about how you came to
: be on this website (which, I assume means
: that you are, or were, married to a man, and
: now are in love with a woman)
: How did you meet the woman you love? How
: did the relationship develop? Was she gay
: or straight (or both?) How long before you
: told her your feelings for her? How did she
: take it? I would love to hear some stories
: from people who are in the same phase of
: this process as I am... and I'd love even
: more to hear from some people who have made
: more "progress" than me, so to
: speak. I look forward to hearing some of
: your stories. I think it would really help.
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