Posted by pencils4sale on October 31, 2009, 12:27 pm, in reply to "Re: So much to say"
Hi Getting it right
I feel like this too... words remain unsaid in my situation- but as you say I feel like Im circling the drain. Went to therapy this am for the 1st time in about 8 yrs...
In my heart I know that you and I will find happiness. I know it. Its hard to walk this painful path, really hard. I feel like my heart and head aches will never go away.
Know I am with you, you are not alone, and Id be happy to listen anytime..
--Previous Message--
: So sorry you are hurting, gettingitright. You
: gave it your best, but she was never truly
: available to you, she was committed
: elsewhere. It doesn't mean she didn't love
: you.
:
: You will have to grieve the loss of this
: relationship, but don't let the grief drag
: on too long. In time you will find another
: love, one who is truly available to you.
: She's out there somewhere waiting.
:
: --Previous Message--
: ...and she doesn't want to hear my words.
: I know that we can not be friends anymore,
: because it has been proven that it's too
: difficult for either of us to stand by, and
: watch the other start new relationships, or
: continue to reside in marital relationships.
: We tried friends, we tried friends with
: benefits, and we tried just about everything
: else.
: We've been back and forth. Words have been
: spoken that have undone all that I'd
: previously KNOWN in my heart that were us.
: I don't know her anymore...not the her that
: I was so in love with.
: It wasn't the same relationship we two had
: shared, that she describes.
: She was much less into me, than I was into
: her.
: That hurts, and those words stay with me.
: I can't stand the pain anymore.
: I am slowly backing away, and slowly but
: surely making a clean break.
: I can't let myself be hurt by her anymore.
: I must move on, and let her own confusion
: about her own life, remain just hers.
:
: I'm circling the drain right now, and need
: to pull myself up, against the flow that
: pulls me down. It's once again, a bad place
: to be, but freeing at the same time.
: Thanks to AJ for allowing me a place to say
: what I needed to.
: Still trying .......to get it right....
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