Posted by gettingitright on October 31, 2009, 11:19 am
...and she doesn't want to hear my words.
I know that we can not be friends anymore, because it has been proven that it's too difficult for either of us to stand by, and watch the other start new relationships, or continue to reside in marital relationships.
We tried friends, we tried friends with benefits, and we tried just about everything else.
We've been back and forth. Words have been spoken that have undone all that I'd previously KNOWN in my heart that were us. I don't know her anymore...not the her that I was so in love with.
It wasn't the same relationship we two had shared, that she describes.
She was much less into me, than I was into her.
That hurts, and those words stay with me.
I can't stand the pain anymore.
I am slowly backing away, and slowly but surely making a clean break.
I can't let myself be hurt by her anymore. I must move on, and let her own confusion about her own life, remain just hers.
I'm circling the drain right now, and need to pull myself up, against the flow that pulls me down. It's once again, a bad place to be, but freeing at the same time.
Thanks to AJ for allowing me a place to say what I needed to.
Still trying .......to get it right....
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