Posted by Scared but hopeful on October 30, 2009, 12:02 pm, in reply to "Feeling Completely Broken"
I'm sorry for your pain ttm. I know what you mean about a broken spirit. There are somedays I would rather stay in bed and put a pillow over my head and forget it all. But, then I pull myself together because it gets me no where.
I also know the fear. In fact, what I have noticed is that the closer I get to making a decision, the worse that fear gets, almost a panicked feeling. Then I back up and start to rethink things all over again. I guess it's my subconscious telling me I'm not quite ready. Who knows for sure. But it does wear on one's soul.
Do you have a therapist? It might help. I myself have been so resistant to therapy for the past year. I felt I could get through this myself, I mean, I've always taken care of myself. Well, I was wrong. I am in way over my head with all of this and have finally recognized I am not handling things well. So I am in the process of finding someone to help me work it through. If you aren't already in therapy, maybe it would help? Please take care of yourself and know that you are not alone.
I'm sending a big hug, u will find a way and you will get through this.
Sbh
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